Once again I’m sitting here scrambling last minute to write a year end post.
I’ve had an ongoing New Year’s Resolution to post monthly updates so this kind of thing doesn’t happen.
Maybe 2015 will be the lucky year I documented better & get organized? Just maybe 🙂
The words in this post don’t even begin to touch the highs and lows from 2014
The photos don’t even begin to touch all the captures … especially what’s on our IPhone’s
I know I’m leaving out so much but I wanted to quickly post what I can remember here.
Brett turned the big 3-0! We celebrated him bowling the night away & with a party at Dad & Pam-la’s
My dad came home from his heart surgery, everyone was so impressed with how well he was doing <3.
Brett started working on garden projects and got our produce seeds planted for the summer garden
I had just had foot surgery – I kept score and took pain meds in my stylish boot <3.
my daddy-o <3.
vegan birthday cake made with love by Pam-la <3.
… produce seed grow stand built by Brett
Brett coached boys basketball for his fourth year
I took a lot of food pictures and was cooking up a storm
The weather was crazy!
Nice warm weather one day with so much sunshine all our nephew needed to wear was his guitar …
then snowing the next week.
… sunny days at my sister-in-laws <3.
just a boy and his guitar <3.
Vegan Soup – “Forks over Knives”
Took our niece on a date night <3.
Had many bonfires over at Dad & Pam-la’s
Celebrated Pam-la’s birthday with her family
Dad’s new heart journey began <3.
Little A with Sweet Kitty <3.
… my favorite of her smiles <3.
… plays with her hair when a little shy – precious!
she’s putting Sweet Kitty’s heart inside <3.
… so ladylike <3.
… honestly, she teaches me more then I could ever teach her <3.
…bonfire junkie cooking vegan dogs <3.
… my best friends baby & I on his first restaurant outing <3.
Easter with my family (Brett worked)
Babysitting adventures – the weather was freezing!
Easter 2014 <3.
… wind blown hair ain’t got nothing on him 🙂
When did you go from a toddler to a little boy?
… two of my most favorite people!
You’re a couple that empowers others – I really love that about you two <3.
… just a girl and her bff <3.
… super cool kid (aka young man) <3.
… just a boy and his Pop <3.
… my sister always says it takes a village – so true <3.
5 years married <3.
… we went to a 80’s themed Murder Mystery night for our anniversary dinner – so fun!
… clearly we won cutest 80’s couple <3.
… our garden randomly went nuts with strawberries!
Brett finished the garden expansion <3.
… our summer 2014 backyard garden
… one of my dearest friends came to town for a visit – this girl has positively impacted my life in so many ways.
Amazing friend, mom, wife, sister, daughter and woman of God <3.
… being sneaking to get some awesome pictures of deer in the backyard <3.
Shady our camper!
… niece & nephew playing in a beautiful sunset
… the D crew – minus Jack
4th of July perfection <3.
… the world needs you little man <3.
… four tough dudes on a playground – I love these guys <3.
… it’s their signature pose & I adore it <3.
glimpse of our 2014 summer garden harvest
Mr. & I canned for the first time this past summer (strawberry jam, with strawberries from our garden)
… it went perfectly with Pam-la’s homemade super fresh bread <3.
… looking at hummingbirds <3.
… more garden goodies <3. Really proud of you Brett, you worked so hard and it payed off!
Beaver Lake trip with my boys <3.
… our campsite was steps from the crystal clear water <3.
“I’m gonna sit right here and breath in the fresh air.”
I pulled the boat for the first time with Brett’s truck!
… he wanted to swim with the big boys so bad!
Beaver Lake lobsters <3.
… I took way too many pictures of the dogs!
… bonfire by the lake at moonlight hour <3.
We probably have 2 years worth of spaghetti/pizza sauce and salsa – 100% organic tomatoes from our garden <3.
Chicago Trip <3.
OSU alumni in Chicago – super fun night <3.
famous Chicago comedy club <3.
went camping with Brett’s childhood friend at Keystone Lake
… lots and lots of Oklahoma State University football
I did a family photoshoot of my most favorite family <3.
Also did my first senior photoshoot <3.
… more OSU football
I turned thirty – Yikes!
This is 30 babe <3.
my sister-in-law made me a yummy 30th birthday breakfast <3.
… my MIL – I ❤ her!
Yes, I made Mr. wear that apron – worlds best uncle!
This year completely got away from me, its soul turning to think 2015 is right around the corner!
I wanted so severely to do something bold, take a huge risk or adventure, positively change someone’s life or accomplish something mind blowing in my last year of my twenties. I yearned for splendor so badly I beat myself up daily/hourly for not thinking of what I was meant to achieve. Is there a 29 year old condition for these symptoms, clearly I’d like to slap a label on it. Now I know it was my roundabout way of avoiding some soul-searching.
I made this year so incredibly hard by being inflexible and determined to find my grandness outside of myself, outside of my relationship with God. He never stopped trying to pull my heartstrings back together, but the amount of force I was holding inside just kept bursting them back open. It took me a year to quit avoiding, but the Lord showed me something hidden deep inside my being. That I need to quit this vicious cycle and break free from my insecurities, fears and anxieties that have held me back, and caused me to shut down so many times.
It’s human nature to take pieces that you love, admire and respect from others and vigorously strive to make those pieces a part of your own identity. I don’t want to do that anymore, it’s exhausting and I’ve lost myself in the shuffle of who I am, who I should be and who I want to be like. I struggled so incredibly hard to build my “ideal” self throughout my twenties. I looked to others, instead of within and His Word for what the “perfect” woman signifies.
It’s really sad that working to meet the woman God created me to be wasn’t mind blowing enough to satisfy my yearning for significance, and that it took me a year of slapping away God’s helping hand to bring that truth to light. I think it’s very important to know God doesn’t always show us the way with flashing bright lights. Choosing what you do while waiting is sometimes part of the plan, for me waiting was the plan. Stillness scares me because without distractions I have to see myself and that can be a difficult reality.
As much as I’d love to be outgoing, witty, athletic and spontaneous …. I must remember I’m fearfully and wonderfully made by my perfect Creator, that’s so unique and special. Makes me excited to get to know me and discover what my heavenly Father created me to do in His glory. Learning and strengthening my God given gifts is one goal for my thirties. An important key to faith is to remember God never arrives early or late … just in His perfect timing.
“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful, I know that full well.”
I’m ready, so here I come 2015 <3.